Monday, June 11, 2012

Two Years

I just can't believe it's been two years since you went to Heaven.  Not a day goes by that I don't miss you and think about you.  Oh how I wish I could just see you right now! Are you sitting by a lake? Maybe you are making something out of nothing with your hands ~ you were so good at that.  You could always take any old thing and make it useful again.  Or maybe you're whittling.  Or eating Ridgewood BBQ.  Or drawing that little dog you used to draw for me every Sunday during church.  If I could only see you draw that dog one more time...

Of course, there's the selfish part of me that wants you here with me.  I so badly want you to see my children grow up and experience life.  I want them to fish with you.  I want them to work in the garden with you.  I want them to learn from you the things you taught us all so, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control.  You taught us those every day just by the way you lived your life.  

Even though I long to have you here with me, I know where you are.  I have such peace in knowing that you are with Jesus, completely healed.  After seeing your health decline for several years, I am overwhelmed with joy when I think of you walking (running!) around heaven with no limitations, no medicines, no walkers, nothing to hold you back!  

When I join you one day, I can't wait to talk about old times.  I really believe we'll have our memories in Heaven (the good ones of course).  And we sure have a lot of memories, don't we?  Christmas, vacations (I got my love of Myrtle Beach from you), lake, teaching me to drive, church, camping, and just memories of everyday life.  

The day you went to Heaven, my perspective about life changed forever.  I now have experienced a loss that I never even began to understand before.  Everything is different.  Nothing will ever be the same.  Nothing.  Thank you for treasuring Jesus and your family above anything else.  Thank you for loving us unconditionally.  Thank you for simply being you.  I'm so grateful.  I love you Daddy.

"He puts a little of heaven in our hearts so that we'll never settle for less." 2 Corinthians 5: 5 (The Message)

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